Too Small
While my big brother
plays basketball with
his friends, I sit on the edge
of the lawn, watching
Wondering
Will I ever be Big enough?
Big enough to keep the steady rhythm
of the game, running
panting springing, pouncing –
Into the net. Swish, din, pat pat pat, shh.
Big enough to break away
from the force of gravity,
leap into the air, spinning
like a dance.
Big enough to feel the slap
of my brother’s hand on my back,
to laugh at his jokes,
to see him laugh at mine.
Big enough.
Then my big brother walks
over to my little corner, lifts
me on his shoulders, places the ball
between my two hands, too small.
My big brother and I
walk over to the hoop.
“There it is.
Take the shot.”
Big enough.
Swish, din, pat pat pat, shh.
Little girl
Little girls grow like daisies in spring,
dancing their way with arms reaching out as far as they can go.
Count the sun beams and the smiles that they bring
and you’ll be counting past the grown-up years but still, you will not know.
Somewhere in the process of counting bright smiles and sunny rays,
a little girl may just lose sight, over too-long miles and too-short days,
of the girl that she had been and the daisies she would pick,
‘till the little girl becomes lost in big thoughts and long lists
and the loudest sound heard is tick-tock-tick
and of all the things lost only one thing persists.
She dances her way still, though she stumbles a bit.
Through grown-up mazes, refuses to quit
But her arms strain under the weight of her books
and time drives her faster through a sea of unfamiliar faces.
She searches for friends, finds mostly strange looks
that question her quest as they go, counting paces.
Yes, the flooded crowd flows, a steady stream, trudging
Eyes locked in their place, minds cloudy with judging.
She dances her way still,
fixes a smile on her face, grasps a hope in her heart.
Perhaps some day she will
find her way out of the maze, stand apart.
At last the day’s ended and the little girl sighs
as she makes her way home with an eye to the skies.
Stumbles gently down the hill in the evening,
books closed, thoughts free,
Sees the clouds can’t bar the sun-beams streaming,
lighting mountain, rock, and tree.
So the little girl dancing from class to class
finds freedom in a blade of grass.
Grandpa said
Grandpa said patience
would always bring success,
except when it didn’t, because sometimes it wouldn’t,
and that was the way of things.
But he didn’t say it to me.
He whistled it to the fish in the stream as he sat on the bank,
waiting with patience.
Grandpa said a working man
would always find a way,
except when he didn’t, because sometimes he wouldn’t,
and that was the way of things.
But he didn’t say it to me.
He wore it in the palms of his hands as he did what he could,
a working man.
Grandpa said a man’s heart
would always lead him straight,
except when it didn’t, because sometimes it wouldn’t,
and that was the way of things.
But he didn’t say it to me.
He whispered the secret into Grandma’s ear, and took her hand in his,
a man’s heart.
Grandpa said life
would always be an adventure,
even when it wasn’t, because sometimes we can’t tell
that this is the way of things.
But he didn’t say it to me.
He showed it in stories, the life that he led,
his life that now discovers a new adventure.
He didn’t say it to me,
But I heard it, just the same.
Grandpa said patience,
a working man,
a man’s heart,
life is an adventure.
Learning to Love
My rocking horse sways
under shy infant fingers
until sure working hands
hold it, firm, standing still.
Another hand steadies me;
I lean back.
Hands lead to faces,
and faces to smiles
and hearts that glow with love
stronger than life.
I am drawn to the light of it,
my face to those faces
and breath escapes loudly
when my body follows –
much faster.
Another hand catches me;
I reach for it.
The hand that guided the wood
and shaped the small seat,
that smoothed the rough patches,
gave life to the horse,
and love.
It holds me, and I hold it.
My fingers close about that
hand. Five of mine and one of
his. He holds me
And I hold him.
My rocking horse sways
as I'm learning to love.
Waiting
Wide carpet, tall walls, spans of large tiles.
Motor walkways, ropes to keep people in line.
Rows of televisions, scrolling screens.
Signs that lead to more signs.
It is a world between worlds.
Crisp uniforms and hair tied back, neat.
Clear voices speak in controlled tones, a low buzz behind,
the Tower of Babble.
Cool air that is the air of everywhere
And nowhere, here in the
in-between
place
where people are
Waiting
waiting for friends and loved ones,
for co-workers and peers,
for home, for adventure, for success,
waiting.
I really like your poems. They are fantastic.
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